a cry for freedom

i've been surfing around in my boredom
my cursed geography notes in front of me, the laptop screen before me.
robin's in ns
tze kai and the rest of the juniors are having the time of their lives going through the same debate season i have long since tread over
but here i am
caught in this fucked up place called no where studying for the pointless o levels.
its pointless really, all this studying.
your brain gets smarter
but your head gets dumb
and with all vigor and passion we go forth to meet the enemy which is the o levels.
utter bull crap.
i cannot wait
i cannot wait to get this over with
the holidays are ending
its been mechanical studying all along
save for the first two weeks.
to meet me on the first day of school are the prelim 2s
great.
another round of dissapointment and endless studying.
its sad to be such a pessimist
but i'm being realistic with regard to me.
though in the coming month some things might spice up my life.
the completion of our school syllabus, if nothing more than a brief chance to look back and laugh
my submission of my dsa forms
which has been looong overdue by my personal deadlines
i aim to submit it by this tuesday.
and the long waiting for the results.
that decide my future
and just how much slack i can throw.
evidently, none.
but its a relieving feeling.
if i get in that it.
its all so boring.
its such a shame to have met so many interesting, ok maybe just 1, people ar rmun
but not be able to get to meet them.
5 more months
over which period of time i would have grew a year older and a year wiser and wearier.
this is not good.
not good at all.